reality check

[thenorthener2050]

got poisoned with 400mg cisordinol today

made a proper vasopressin podcast, the 10th

im proud of myself. did something of value.

tried to make the world better. posted 1

aphorism to quotesquotesquotesdotxls

refurbishing from the rubble.

its 170 quotes i think. ill build on it

do remember vaa i managed to keep that blogg

for several years so its maybe 1000 quotes

collected in my mind for 2 decades or more

its a lifework. it was because id turned

into a parent. i didnt want to impress

chicks anymore, i wanted to be a good person.

make a difference. like the quran says

"if you have helped a person you have

saved an entire world". remember, at least

if youre male, dont be a pussy, learn to say

no. start working out. calisthinetics is the

optimal. just do bicep curls. the simplest

exercise. if youve been online for years just

stretch your fingers especially thumbs they are

unharmonic. just move your fingers in and out.

like 30 mins 3 times per day for 3 months. youll

notice a difference. like if you do more with your

arms or legs or back or hips, youll look healthier

directly after the first time. and promenades are

better than working out your arms at all. walks are

50% calisthinetics because you have no weights on

your arms. whatever you do, take care of yourself.

take care of your community. get a job even if you

get little or no pay. dont be a troll online. theyre

all unemployed douches. you shouldnt not care about

what they say because then you turn to a stone. but

like "i dont read the review" - bright eyes, just

shield yourself from social media. start a project

even if its "shower once a day" if youre a neckbeard.

keep to it. someone will eventually appreciate you.

stop the excessive gaming. still play games but like

tell yourself no gaming when you wake up or exactly

when you came home from school or work no gaming when

youre tired and you gooble energy drinks. just game

an hour or two or three max. keep to it. make yourself

a promise and keep it. the world is infinite even being

offline charge your smartphone in another room and only

use it like a few hours a day. theres infinite things do

to in real life. take a walk in the woods every day, or

even in your community, even at night. if youre young

move as far as possible away from home so your family

cant manipulate you with money and electronics and food

and junkfood and cakes or cookies homemade its just control

take control of your life. if you just do things you enjoy

youre a douche as well. get discipline do calisthinetics

drink water. its the essence of life so is salt. even if

youre not good at cooking just make yourself a good coffee

once a day keep to it dont buy in a cafe. add some cacao

and sugar youll turn into a coffee thing whip up some milk

and make patterns if youre good at it ask around in cafes

if they are seeking staff if you do that awhile youll prolly

see a sign "staff position availalbe, call so-and-so or talk"

yeah thats the thing. if you want to get hired, just ask that

theyll probably answer "amber is here on fridays". dress up

proper that day get a shave and haircut get cool clothes new

jeans or trainers whatever go there they might say "oh she

comes in at 4 hours" or "shes sick today" well suck it up

and try for weeks even months finally youll get a chance

whatever you do dont say "im really good at cooking coffee"

youll be allowed to wash the dishes or clean the floor after

some years if you keep at it if you get there on time and

really do a good job cleaning the floor youll be promoted

life isnt easy nothing is you cant do a irl hack and get

promoted to making coffee and selling treats directly thats

not how it works if they treat you like shit suck it up

dont bitch back youll be fired soon but then again try

another cafe try 10 until you find where they respect

you youll be able to answer "ive worked at 5 places a total

of 3 years" and youll get respect get a cv written up by

yourself dont mention gaming or computers or tech they

dont care but if youre good with maths say youd like a

hand in economics or statistics for the place or chain

you could turn into a boss or get a better position

available but dont rush it dont think youre the king

of the world baby steps remember that its not hard

but its not easy its not like making 150k rune bolts

in runescape and then cashing in on monopoly money

again your family might try to stop you but surely

theyll turn proud even if they dont say it remember

2 steps forwards 1 step back it takes 2 to tango

maybe a staff will get a liking to them but dont

fap about them be for real give them a small gift

just a flower or a poem or both mention your sites

online like a blogg or vlogg love is infinite as

well if you fuck up with that chick you might have

to change workplaces im sure someone has flirted

with you some time and you fucked that up just keep

at it dont eat or drink bitter substances like

immortal technique says "it murders the soul"

good luck and godspeed <3 :) // magna alba sancta